im finally out...feels good. steamboat was good too =D full as hell now, but i dont give a damn. its time to whack the bak kwa, whack the goodies and just eat everything i see. its nice to eat twice your usual amount and lose weight so i guess i'll just keep it as that. 2 days of slacking before i whack the running, the various bars of torture and whatnot. muscles need a serious break for now.
haha i think i will take a psych degree at some point in my life. just to have as one of those lame "trophy" degrees. i realise i have a certain obsession..well not obsession..but i just like to know what and how people think heh. talking to crysdal abt her relationship and stuff has taught me many many things, and the things you can infer are well...uncanny? surprising maybe. seeing and learning how two diff kinds of people can see the same thing in such a different way is well...familiar to some extent, but exciting to learn about too. in the past i just got affected but at least now i learn why viewpoints differ =D yea, i might be psycho. its ok, ive never been quite the same as everyone else anyway. as much as i think i've found a clone of myself, i think i know where we differ too haha. its good to have someone that thinks along the same line though. wish i could help him more though.
well i think i've found one thing to occupy myself with in the last few days. i think its time i broke a few barriers...and hopefully i can break the feeling of absolute emptiness as well. i give up to easily, but its time that changes. good thing in the army is that im in my own world half the time, so theres more than enough time to go within and rid myself of all these lil roadblocks that are in my way.
anyway, as i've told some people, i'm over things already..for good. so yea you don't have to worry anymore. any grief, agony or sadness i feel is not because of you, or anyone else for that matter. im not bothering with the whole slowly piece my heart together junk too...mashing everything together with a good helping of emo superglue works alot faster. i give up for good, because everything i do or not do causes guilt. maybe this statement will too, but you'll get over it soon enough. i only ask for 1 favour, that is to just tell me when you get together with him, or if you already have heh.
maybe i'm out of touch, but all i do is stay in tekong shouting myself hoarse and running myself to the ground anyway. its fun, at least i got people who do the same things with me. nice mindless activity, more time for personal thoughts. some call it genius, some call it madness. as i've learnt, its all a matter of perspective. but still, i see things the way i wanna see them, because to me, thats what makes me, me.
i shall go set some targets for mindless army activities. assembling under 30s...heh that'd be fun. i shall stop rambling about obscure things. time to have fun. screw the army for these few days. its a stupid place anyway.
