baa.

2006-01-31T20:40:00.000+08:00

i discovered yet another job prospect for myself today. the utopian situation would be me somehow getting good grades and getting into med..if that happens i'll make sure im not one of those asshole doctors that are too common nowadays. however, as we all know, the world isn't perfect. so in the event i really cmi, i'll try being a commercial pilot. if that doesnt work out, thats where today's inspiration comes. had breakfast at kelly's, where she whipped up a watered down english breakfast for the bunch of us. watered down not because of the taste, but because it wasn't the full works, which would have probably killed us if she made it. (arterial blockage due to the tons of fat) so, if we both cant do crap, we'll set up a designer cafe/eatery and charge exorbitant prices for really simple food!

as kelly teh chef said today. i, too, do not understand why people do not understand the concept of cooking...and perceive it to be such a difficult task. to other guys who can cook and bake too, kudos to you. to girls who have absolutely no idea how a stove functions, gg.

madness

2006-01-31T00:19:00.000+08:00

i think im going mad haha. but its ok. bloody saf. whack me all you want but fckin let me out on wkends so i can do what i want to do.

-in search of fulfilment.

2006-01-30T00:39:00.000+08:00

God has a plan for me, as he has for everyone else. Everything i go through has a reason for it. What doesn't kill me will make me stronger. This augmentation of my mind will only help me, and even as the path before me is still somewhat shrouded, i see the light at the end. As much as the shroud tries to engulf it, the rays shine brightly. I must reach the end.

sounds like im mad? maybe. i've learnt two things.
1. you can't depend only on yourself.
2. you can only depend on yourself.

I'm a walking contradiction.

Ever got the feeling you had to do something but you didn't know what?

Ultimately, people don't really care. Unfortunately (for myself maybe) i don't give a damn.

2006-01-28T19:56:00.000+08:00

hahahaha i just remembered something.

terence : go club must drink! just drink! i pay! i wanna see you drunk!

me : ogay.

terence : come play drinking game!

a few jugs later...

terence : ok stop drinking. you are sick and i am broke.

hahahahahahahhahahahahahaha.
unfortunately, i'm not sure if i will start spouting rubbish if i'm drunk so if i don't, sorry to disappoint lawl.

6 more weeks to PoPoPoP!

2006-01-28T19:23:00.000+08:00

im finally out...feels good. steamboat was good too =D full as hell now, but i dont give a damn. its time to whack the bak kwa, whack the goodies and just eat everything i see. its nice to eat twice your usual amount and lose weight so i guess i'll just keep it as that. 2 days of slacking before i whack the running, the various bars of torture and whatnot. muscles need a serious break for now.

haha i think i will take a psych degree at some point in my life. just to have as one of those lame "trophy" degrees. i realise i have a certain obsession..well not obsession..but i just like to know what and how people think heh. talking to crysdal abt her relationship and stuff has taught me many many things, and the things you can infer are well...uncanny? surprising maybe. seeing and learning how two diff kinds of people can see the same thing in such a different way is well...familiar to some extent, but exciting to learn about too. in the past i just got affected but at least now i learn why viewpoints differ =D yea, i might be psycho. its ok, ive never been quite the same as everyone else anyway. as much as i think i've found a clone of myself, i think i know where we differ too haha. its good to have someone that thinks along the same line though. wish i could help him more though.

well i think i've found one thing to occupy myself with in the last few days. i think its time i broke a few barriers...and hopefully i can break the feeling of absolute emptiness as well. i give up to easily, but its time that changes. good thing in the army is that im in my own world half the time, so theres more than enough time to go within and rid myself of all these lil roadblocks that are in my way.

anyway, as i've told some people, i'm over things already..for good. so yea you don't have to worry anymore. any grief, agony or sadness i feel is not because of you, or anyone else for that matter. im not bothering with the whole slowly piece my heart together junk too...mashing everything together with a good helping of emo superglue works alot faster. i give up for good, because everything i do or not do causes guilt. maybe this statement will too, but you'll get over it soon enough. i only ask for 1 favour, that is to just tell me when you get together with him, or if you already have heh.

maybe i'm out of touch, but all i do is stay in tekong shouting myself hoarse and running myself to the ground anyway. its fun, at least i got people who do the same things with me. nice mindless activity, more time for personal thoughts. some call it genius, some call it madness. as i've learnt, its all a matter of perspective. but still, i see things the way i wanna see them, because to me, thats what makes me, me.

i shall go set some targets for mindless army activities. assembling under 30s...heh that'd be fun. i shall stop rambling about obscure things. time to have fun. screw the army for these few days. its a stupid place anyway.

today is my bookin day bookin day bookin day

2006-01-10T19:27:00.000+08:00

my day of freedom is gone. time to go back and die lawl.

2006-01-05T22:17:00.000+08:00

Less than 12 hours i'll go from civillian to NSF. I'm kinda looking forward to it anyway. Its a new lease of life i need, and it'll let people like Ben and Crystal take a break from trying to keep me sane. Thanks you two, i really appreciate both of you coming out and helping me keep my head screwed on, and dragging me out all over the place as well. I'm extremely grateful to people like kitfei, jason and pam too...for listening and talking to me...and honestly making me feel loads better. Even my best friend was too busy socializing and fitting in, don't blame him anyway, talking to me would probably have been a boring affair as usual.

Well i'm mostly all packed and ready, chao extra recruit waiting to enter with extra everything lol. But i think extra + comfortable > sitting around in a used-for-3-days PT kit. One reason why i'm not exactly psyched for NS...i REALLY CANNOT WAIT for all the propaganda they are gonna throw at us. Oh well. I guess everyone is right in a sense that the breakup was a blessing in disguise. I also guess its better she left before...rather than during NS. Also good to see you've mostly moved on.

Thanks to whoever actually wants to bother to go send me off tomorrow, but its not really needed k? I don't want anyone to wake up early to waste time travelling all the way there just to see me for 5-10mins...its retarded. The thought counts...so thanks. A couple of months ago I was happy to think i'd see people i knew there before i left, but now i just don't care. Parents will be with me anyway, they wanna see me sign up for my 3 month slimming course heh.

This time its done
It'll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it's sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn't matter somehow
But you were livin' proof of what love is about...

Parting shot : I beat crystal in dota again today. my 2nd time, her 1074021974th time. sighhh i think you are better as the peon la huh? not me =P

2006-01-05T01:14:00.000+08:00

testimonial match today. was really great to play with the bunch of guys again...it was obvious how we all just loved to play...no killer training, no bullshit...just play. sure we sucked badly...but not that badly. 10-10 was the score, we were the inferior side but we had fun in the end. i'm just aching badly now due to 4+ months of inactivity...or more lol.

class had a gathering to send off us soon-to-be baldies lol. dinner started at 9 and ended super late...im dying from the match lolol so freaking unfit.

hmm i cant run long d...how to get into occifer kadat skool...hmms oh well.everyone says its no probs for me lawl. jason the old man said go in and get 8-6 posting after graduation lolol. he says NCC HQ is fun too...you get to go around to stupid schools and make them hold parades for you lawl.

damn wheres my 10mirrion dorrar toto ticket...now that i dont have a wedding or anything to spend it on i wanna freaking get a flying license privately. oh well.
lol something that got me thinking. a few days back the SIA pilots assoc. president made a comment of how SIA pilots are being poached, and even commenting on how these pilots who make the switch to other airlines have no sense of loyalty or smth..i mean as a pilot you only have THAT many years of flighttime...you gotta make all yr money in those years so DUH they will go to someplace that pays wayy better no? oh well.

army soon. new lease of life. i need it anyway. my life isnt as comfy or settled as i thought it to be..deluded maybe. time to do something then. if anyone is irritated by these short sentences, too bad.

quoted from xiaxue's FAQ section
"I wank to your pictures Xiaxue!"

"I hope you get cancer."

makes me geegle.

2006-01-04T11:17:00.000+08:00

woah weird dreams. glad im finally awake. hate dreams that make you feel tired...and i slept 10 hours even.

2006-01-04T00:03:00.000+08:00

2 more days. who gives a fuck anyway. i don't.
job needs to be done. job will be done. finish. fade to black kthxbai.

2006-01-03T23:25:00.000+08:00

please stop drinking. i know you have been. please don't. you never used to. this much anyway. and if im to blame, so be it. and maybe its my just reward for not being tolerant or understanding enough. tt i tried but did all the wrong things. but the drinking harms you more, so dont do it. don't, please.

i puked on new yrs day. EVERYBODY knows. from everyone in the canteen to my cousins know. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

and about being a doctor, you do have what it takes. but think it thru carefully if this is what you want to do. i know the reasons why, but consider if it is for you. you have the brains and the rationality. more than i could ever dream having. but make sure you think it thru carefully. so you'll never look back with regrets.

2006-01-03T00:56:00.000+08:00

i've said before that i've learnt alot from one relationship, and i'm still learning. whilst "councilling" someone just now, it made me reflect even more about some aspects i never really went over. It made me understand alot more, which is good since i'm trying to find closure for myself.

Watched a show called Dr 90210 earlier..about plastic surgeons in Hollywood. They showed the actual surgery...and seeing that made me worry. Not only because seeing a fully opened nose was disconcerting, but also the fact that I found such images disturbing. I've wanted to be a doctor for a long time...i still do. But the thought of me possibly making medical school and having problems with surgery just makes me worry abit. I know i'll probably get used to it over time, if i get the chance the desire to want to help would probably make me get over whatever gory stuff that goes on in people's body. Then comes the whole business of getting into med school. I'm honestly scared shitless abt how my A's will turn out. I know i will definately PASS it, but its not about passing. My mom told me she thinks i'll do well...for once, i really really really hope that what she thinks is right, cuz she has the uncanny ability to be right more often than not. "The thing about medicine is, no matter how perfectly you do something, sometimes things just don't turn out right." Medicine incorporates many rollercoaster rides, be they emotional, physical or mental...but i hope and wish i get the chance to experience them...

I'm giving my life a kick in the butt...i've always been moving but the last month or so i've just been wandering, drifting around. The last few days were spent just slipping further down the spiral...i hope today would be an exception. No more attempting to get myself pissed drunk...just gotta deal with my inner demons once and for all.

3 more days before NS, i'm kinda looking forward to it even. Maybe its a chance to start on a clean slate...that is something i would welcome i guess. Honestly, i feel alone...but thats been the story of my life ever since i was young eh? I don't care anymore lol...

at some point in my life i will take psych. how people think...i'd like to understand more. life as it is...is teaching me alot. oh well. one day i will find closure for myself, and then maybe i can stop being the worthless shit i am now. caught between who i am, and who i wanna be...thats what i am now. God has a plan for everyone....whats mine?

why can i solve people's problems, but not my own?

2006-01-01T21:41:00.000+08:00

OMG today marks the day of...ADULT FARE for public transport ; ;

EVERYONE REMEMBER TO TAP WHEN YOU GET OFF BUSES
or SBS will con you of 2 dollars!

had lunch with ben, por and weifen at that pizza place behind 6th ave center..must say its worth the 6 dollars. went to island creamery after to talk..haha...fun people. weifen is going to be working there from friday so today was watch and learn day for her! haha. getting home from 6th ave is a pain >< especially so when its pouring like no tomorrow

5 more days to army days, army days, army days
5 more days to army days, where i'll be for a long long time.

Maybe we're all different
But we're still the same
We all got the blood of Eden running to our veins
I know sometimes it's hard for you to see
You caught between just who you are and who you want to be

If you feel alone and lost and need a friend
Remember every new beginning is some beginning's end

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here right now you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome to wherever you are

When everybody's in and you're left out
And you feel drowning in a shadow of the dawn
Everyone's a miracle in their own way
Just listen to yourself not what other people say

When it seems you're lost alone and feeling down
Remember everybody's different, just take a look around

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here right now you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Be who you want to be, be who you are
Everyone's a hero, everyone's a star

When you want to give up and your heart's about to break
Remember that you're perfect, God's make no mistakes

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here right now you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
(I say welcome) Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far (welcome)

2006-01-01T00:56:00.000+08:00

i'm bored so..

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

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You Are A Friendly Ex

You and your ex are just friends - great friends really.
(At least that's what you keep telling yourself!)
While civility is a good thing, make sure you're not secretly wanting more...

What Type of Ex Are You?

haha.

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Your Kissing Purity Score: 63% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing

Lip to lip action makes your heart sing

Kissing Purity Test

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You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.
You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.
You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you.

Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.
You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.
Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.

At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.
You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.
You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

What Temperment Are You?

true haha...but people only see the bad side of everything.

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Your Personality Is

Rational (NT)

You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas.
You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy!

Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people.
In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally.

You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought.
Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals.

In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent.

At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia.

With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well.

As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly.

On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

The Three Question Personality Test

this is...very true.

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You're An Alcoholic

Time to go back to step one.

What Kind of Drunk Are You?

HAHAHAHAHA i think its coming thru though. just that nobody ever wants to drink with me. all the fckers. iz ogay i drink myself! i wanna proclaim again that beer sucks

2005-12-31T01:16:00.000+08:00

NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WILL HAVE TO BUY A BOTTLE OF BAILEYS FOR MYSELF.

always set realistic targets that you can meet. i will meet this one!

2005-12-31T00:31:00.000+08:00

i still miss you as much as eveer...not that you'd know or caree.

gosh my head is starting to hrut ..

2005-12-30T21:22:00.000+08:00

bought army shit today. bloody expensive.
crystal insisted on bowling so marcus, me, sompong, cow and her husband went to..
3rd time in my life i bowled and...guess my score for 3 games

66 66 66.

jeez i suck at bowling haha.

1 more week to book in day.
maybe its a good thing.

haha terence's mom is a damn nice person.

2005-12-29T20:41:00.000+08:00

hahahaha. for the first time in my 18 years of breathing, my sister said she loved me. she also happened to be pissed drunk. meh.

2005-12-29T10:14:00.000+08:00

You're beautiful so silently
It lies beneath a shade of blue
It struck me so violently
When I looked at you

But others pass, they never pause
To feel that magic in your hand
To me you're like a wild rose
They never understand why

I cried for you
When the sky cried for you
And when you went
I became a hopeless drifter
But this life was not for you
Though I learned from you
That beauty need only be a whisper

I'll cross the sea for a different world
With your treasure, a secret for me to hold

In many years they may forget
This love of ours or that we met
They may not know
How much you meant to me

I cried for you
And the sky cried for you
And when you went
I became a hopeless drifter
But this life was not for you
Though I learned from you
That beauty need only be a whisper

Without you now I see
How fragile the world can be
And I know you've gone away
But in my heart you'll always stay

I cried for you
And the sky cried for you
And when you went
I became a hopeless drifter
But this life was not for you
Though I learned from you
That beauty need only be a whisper

Katie Melua - I Cried For You

nice song.

South Africa 12/12/05 - 20/12/05

2005-12-27T12:23:00.000+08:00

k i'll write some stuff abt my trip now...for myself to remember at least =D

general statements :
1. there are wayyyyyyyy more blacks than whites there
2. they have a higher cost of living even though they are 1247210940129740x poorer
3. its harder to find an ugly white girl than a hot one most of the time

First 3 days were spent in cape town...that place is B-E-A-OOOOTIFOOL! Sea on one side, mountain on the other. Sure, there are other places in the world that have that too, but cape town still looked the best to me..as a tourist anyway. We went to some ostrich farm where i got to sit on a poor ostrich...the guide was like...oh its safe! hes very docile and he doesnt try to throw you off! sure he doesnt! i mean hes freakin bolted and chained to a wooden frame htf does he move. Oh well...those things have eyeballs that weigh 60g and brains that weigh 40...so ummmm...yea.

Went out to see seals on an "island". I say that cuz it was just this rock platform with a ton of seals which STANK to the core. We were lucky cuz on the way back we saw this hugeee pod of dolphins...i like how they always come up next to vessels and "escort" them. We had a lobster lunch that day...and it sucked. Plainly put, after making that dish for 10+ years, the cafe still sucks at it. And it looked more like crayfish than lobster!@$!@ Went to one of the beaches where jackass penguins stay too haha. they looked retarded to say the least.

Day 3 : Went to Stellenbosch...nice name for a nice place. One of the larger wine producing areas in SA. Had a wine tasting session and my parents finally learnt that you can't keep white wine. That would explain the 2 bottles of wine we had on xmas day. >.> Had a horrible lunch at one of the vineyards that day though...was supposed to be good but I didn't think so. Went to table mountain at night too....despite it being cold and shit, the view of the city was nice...moon was almost full too ^^

Day4 : Flew off to Johannesburg early in teh morning. Went to some boring place like one of e flea markets and stuff...didnt do anything lol

Day 5 and 6: Safari days! Exciting! I've said it 129471 times already and i'll say it many many more times. This was the best part of the trip...driving around in the game area was cool enough...like discovery channel just that you're the one doing the program, not just watching. The ranger's big ass rifle was also nice to look at lol. We had an evening drive and a morning drive so the first day we didn't see much...all the more common animals around. The ranger was looking for an aardvark to show us but we didn't manage to find one =( Went lion searching the next morning and found them! They were getting their usual 18 hours of sleep when suddenly one of the female lions stirred...and out of the bush jumped this dumb shit of an impala, straight into the paws of the female. The female proceeded to bite the hell out of its neck and well...the male lion woke up, took the kill and ate it himself.
Although the place was a private reserve, it was still nice...quiet, peaceful..the air was fresh and the view of the lake from my room was nice too. only thing is THE WATER THERE IS BROWN and its quite gross. but got used to it after awhile.

Later that day after we left the safari, we went to this lion park where we could play with lion cubs. I rather have a lion cub than a puppy really. but i rather have a dog than a lion so i think i'll stick with puppies. I don't get why some people are so freakin scared of holding a cub..or animal for that matter. The cub got pissy after awhile cuz people weren't holding him right. And everyone was OMG HE WANTS TO BITE ME!!! doh would you rather be on the ground or carried up by someone whos gonna drop you. It was nice to me though^^

Last 2 days sucked. why? cuz we went to Sun City. Some people say its SA's las vegas. i say its worse than genting. absolutely nothing to do there so i stayed in all day watching movies..because when i DID try to walk around to find SOMETHING to do there were only casinos and more casinos. and playing bingo alone is quite sian so i didnt. and the water theme park looked exactly like sunway lagoon but it was a holiday so there were 9247012947120 people there. could have gone to look at hot babes but...i don't quite like enormous crowds. At least cable there was decent...they have some really dumb shows too...those were mainly late at night so i didn't watch any haha.

SA was fun =)

2005-12-27T02:32:00.000+08:00

sorry i went back earlier today.really wasnt feeling well, kept rubbing my eyes and blanking on u. so sorry.. konked out till 1150pm,watched abit of scrubs before i sent my dad off at the airport. the airport AGAIN! its a love-hate relationship. my dad said we shld get a house next to the airport. there seems to be a lot of travelling this yr. NO SHIT!! everybody else kinda holidayed for a total of abt,more than a month?! slack pigs.

my mom is such a workaholic n its driving me nuts she's pushing it on us! haha but shes still cute. :]

i realised some things on my blog got taken the wrong way. just know tt some things i didnt want to display it outright to the world. i only wrote what i felt n i knew what it meant to me.

my eyes still hurt. n u cared baking last yr? why? oh n dun worry abt the cup. n no point keeping the pieces, really. im just glad u treasured it all this while, n still do. :] tts what matters.

2005-12-25T11:43:00.000+08:00

Christmas Day =)

don't think we're having a dinner today though by the looks of things haha. first time i'm not having a Christmas dinner if we don't...feels weird. Classmates went back at 10...i think they will all go crash. crazy nuts were up till 6am...i threw in the towel at 5 and went to bed..apparent 5/6 fell asleep the last movie haha. woke up at 9 so that makes 2 days of 4 hrs...i'm going to die at this rate lol. not much to do this christmas...not many people to spend it with also. Terence is wasted from the looks of his msn nick..maybe i'll visit later

feeling devoid of everything recently...thats actually a contradiction lol.

2005-12-24T22:12:00.000+08:00

i hate myself.
i broke the cup she gave me last year on this day.
i fucking hate myself.

christmas eve

2005-12-24T17:07:00.000+08:00

hahaha in usual 04s63 fashion, meeting at 530 means earliest 6...so here i am, at 530..still at home! i was gonna leave 15mins ago but they said they'll all be late. at 5 i saw marcus logon to msn. so no rush haha. i have no idea what we're gonna do here..but its ok im sure we can conjure up some rubbish knowing all of them.

this year's xmas cake turned out alot better than usual...no burnt bits, not dry, cake didnt even attempt to stick to the pan...the secret must be not caring about it when yr baking...because the one year i bake for the sake of baking it it turns out better than normal...

according to terence i will have fun the next two years doing jack all..oh well might as well use up my quota of stoning for the rest of my life and hopefully do something productive after ns...or even during cuz im sure i'll use more than my fair share.

i miss you..the pain has eased a little...my chest no longer tightens up to suffocate me..but the great sense of loss is everpresent..i'm sorry i yelled at you, i just had to make it known that i'm not the useless aimless goalless drifter i might appear to be. i don't know where you get the idea that i think you are any less hurt than i am, because its definately not from me. take care, i'll just be here watching, as i knew i would be doing from the very beginning. thank you for your time, i'd want more of it, but im just selfish...

smile-

all i ever wanted for Christmas was you.

2005-12-23T21:09:00.000+08:00

today r my cake baking day. 1 last cake in the oven...turning out alot better than usual..i've finally learnt how to use my oven so it bakes stuff at the NORMAL timing instead of four times faster..went on a short shopping trip today and bought slippers at last...almost christmas eve.

class is having a party at my place tomorrow...organised in 2 days...or maybe they planned it and were waiting to see if my place was available haha. whatever. fun tomorrow i hope.

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I never thought my life would end up quite this way
Sometimes it's hard to figure out what I should say
I tried alone to mend this broken heart
I need you that thing you do

When we're apart I find it very hard to smile
You know that other girls have never been my style
Well there's a feeling that I get when I'm with you
I need you that thing you do

I could search around the world only to find
The only thing I need is you right by my side

There's a feeling that I get when I'm with you
Oh oh oh that thing you do
I could search around the world only to find
The only thing I need is you right by my side
I never thought my life would end up quite this way
Sometimes it's hard to figure out what I should say
I tried alone to mend this broken heart
I need you that thing you do

you sang this for me the night i turned 18...whenever i hear it this same feeling comes...whatever it is it brings a cheesy smile to my face...always
no need for me to bold lyrics...pretty much everything would be bold heh.

love it how everyone doesnt see i exist anymore.

pics

2005-12-23T00:03:00.000+08:00

some of the pics are here...doing the rest tmr...some dont wanna come outta ipod grr

PICS HERE

2005-12-22T20:29:00.000+08:00

i got my bag back =) so glad i can get everything inside there. yes i will go shopping anyhow after i claim INSURANCE!!! they broke the handle with the flight tag off...thats why it didnt get loaded on the plane. i wonder if that handle flew back though hahaha. ok im slowly uploading pics...its gonna take foreverrrr. i'll write my entry later on...some other writey stuff i wanna finish first

sometimes in life you just know when something happens, whether it'll stick with you for life...or just become another passing phase.right now i feel like something very important has just passed me by...and as much as i want to get it back to get rid of this sense of emptiness, i'm afraid to admit that i'll probably not be able to. i know it wasn't just a phase for me...or for you...its not just something i can brush off...unlike the past...i know its the same for you. believe me i do.

2005-12-21T15:18:00.000+08:00

sorry to cut in. but im still here.

i just didnt know how to reply to sarjen. okok, its SERGEANT!!! i wld noe. i was staff sergeant. tho.. they just..addressed me as.. staff. hm.

go shopping!

the runaway suitcase

2005-12-20T19:40:00.000+08:00

hokay. so i really intended to make a post about my trip, and post up pics as well. however, my luggage decided johannesburg was nicer than changi and wanted to spend 1 extra night there. the good thing is, it was found..i really didnt wanna rebuy half my wardrobe worth of clothes. for those who have seen my wardrobe, it is now 80% emptier. that is really the amount of stuff i cant use lol. the bad thing is, i gotta unpack tmr when it comes and everyone else is done with that.

i shall write my grandma story tomorrow i guess...and attempt to post photos up. (everyone gasp on the count of 3...justin took photos! with himself in them!)

2005-12-20T10:55:00.000+08:00

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

woke up at 4am and it was the first thing i saw on mtv...not what i would call heartwarming

jihad

2005-12-20T10:37:00.000+08:00

ok...since no one ever comes here anymore and i was surprisingly the last person to post, i shall just hijack the blog for my own use...not that it matters.

meh

2005-11-04T09:33:00.000+08:00

a belated happy birthday to my dear sam.

firstly, its spelt sarGEANT not sarjent,sarjen,sargen,sargent.
how long did it take them to notify you of yr posting ghey? cuz mine hasnt come yet
anyhow, i doubt i'll be seeing you at pasir ris camp so have teh funz! i couldn't care to go thru commando training..but since j00 havent had first hand experience of training till you feel like a rag doll, you can go have fun! I <3 TEKONG!

2005-10-27T12:06:00.000+08:00

hahahahha... army daayyyss...

my friend said training is frigging tough. then they kinda get at you and say "so.. are you tired? do you wanna give up?" in those eerily scary voices tt meant theres only one answer n its not the one you really wanna scream. so you pretty much have to squeak "no sarjent! i'm not tired sarjent! i will not give up sarjent! i will press on sarjent!" oh geez. -shakes head-

reduced to such a state.

2005-10-21T01:01:00.000+08:00

Yes sergeant No sarjent

i dont like it what. just that i probably havent heard as many horror stories as the rest of em. so im not imagining the full extent of mudhugging i have to do. also because theres not much i can change about it right now, might as well get used to it. yes sarjen no sarjen three bags full sarjen

2005-10-20T16:09:00.000+08:00

and i get to laugh about it.

AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!!!!

this is so fun. did i mention my hair is halfway down my back? and oh i get to NOT blend in with the trees?

and melv, wats up with liking commandos..?!

2005-10-19T22:11:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED FIRST ANNIVERSARY!@$%^

I can't believe it's one year. Time sure flies doesn't it? In no time half of us will turn bald. And then soon enough our hair will grow back. Wow.

2005-10-18T21:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY!!!

i dont think anyone will see this. my friends dont wanna blog, my boyfriend doesnt wanna blog. sigh. i give up.

igiveupigiveupigiveup.

i.

give.

up.

2005-09-02T23:11:00.000+08:00

hm. funny thing is, i didnt blog because see, one day i called justin ho xuan wei, and probed him as to what he was doing. he said typing a half entry. so i kinda assumed for which blog. the post never came.

rawwrrr. you LIED!!! heh. ah wells.

and i still appreciate you coming down, it was nice!! menotti was good, no? ;]

GOURMET PLUS AFTER PRELIMS!!!!!! zzz. im sleepy. chem paper one was like. hurhur.

melvin, u've been TODAY-ed.

dead

2005-08-31T15:35:00.000+08:00

i declare this blog officially dead. the sheep will wave 24/7 anyway.

2005-08-13T21:04:00.000+08:00

i swear something doesn't want me to watch sam perform. first at PS i was 10mins late..today at marina i was..in time to watch them backstage and wait for them to change..and the worst thing is i left almost 2 hrs early today. everything goes wrong when you dont need it to honestly. her performance was at 4-430..so i was stuck at city hall at 345 cuz i stupidly took a bus. so i try teh cab! but NOOOOOOOOO they had to close ALL the roads to marina bay cuz of the fear of people wanting to bomb a dilapidated, deserted, uninteresting, uninhabited and basically useless park aka marina south. so yea i went 1 big round in a cab wasting my money..the only good thing was that the cab driver was really nice..we saw the bus in front of us and he chased it down for me. so ok i reach marina park entrance at 4ish +- mins..praying that they delay a little..then i find out i have to walk from 1 end of the park to the other end of the park.cuz why? the arts village must be in the corner of nowhere! i caught sight of the stupid place at 415 but no one was on the stage..so i ask some guy walking from that direction if they performed already..he gave me the lolz0mgyougotpwnd face and said yes. so woot! i missed sam performing again! and ive only seen navras a couple of times..unlike sax..so i really dont mind seeing it a few more times cuz it IS quite nice..after that we went to menotti for abit then walked ard before i sent her home and learnt that she really can fall asleep standing up...but yea i didnt mind la..poor girl is tired. but she doesnt wanna sleep earlier so its not my fault =X sleep earlier boo! love you..

see a really long post..cuz yea god hates me or smth. reminds me of ff sometimes..like when you can see where you wanna go and yr at the location..but the actual place is farrr farr away cuz idiots make you walk the longest possible route they can think of. sigh.

2005-08-09T23:21:00.000+08:00

BAHH!!! you guys suck writing songs!!!! but nvm. not tt i can do any better..!!

arrghh.. no more dance!! :(

i cried like SHIT in the farewell. SHIIITTT...

2005-07-31T12:01:00.000+08:00

i shall follow up on melvin's song.

i am going to cut hair too
lets hope the barber doesnt give me a stupid do
who really cares anyway
and now i'll just go away

byebye i shall wait for tuition guy to come.

2005-07-28T23:14:00.000+08:00

I went to cut hair today, and was inspired to write a song, here goes!

Haircut
I got a haircut haircut.
la la la.
haircut.
end.

whadya think? ima creative genius aint i?

2005-07-26T23:32:00.000+08:00

aye.. dun feel compelled to blog. i should have only taken it doen if everybody agreed anyways.

i just like the sheep a lot.

yupyup. thanks schmer, dianna, melv, and moo, for coming to rapture 2005. :] sorry abt the BLANK after. XP

cheers.

keep your head up

2005-07-17T23:16:00.000+08:00

iyam posting iyam posting!

here's 10 excuses for why this blog appears unupdated. It's not our faults, really!

1.) Sam has her own blog.
2.) So does Melvin.
3.) And Crystal.
4.) Justin is a gentleman of few words, and prefers not writing publicly.
5.) Terence is illiterate. Ha JUST KIDDING!
6.) The whole lot of us have A-Levels. Except Terence. Who is busy calling me up to play CS.
7.) Melvin, Justin and Terence have to play FF.
8.) The blog font's a wee bit too small. Make it bigger and suddenly it will seem like our words now hold alot more weight.
9.) I couldn't think of 9.
10.) Or 10.

Aye sad ain't it? But give it time.

On my part I resolve to blog on sheeponwings more. As well as on my own. Tata!

2005-07-09T20:17:00.000+08:00

give me a hole where i can crawl into, bury myself, and hide forever.

give me rest.

and so sad, nobody blogged ONCE. sigh. not even when you guys have no excuses to anymore... RAWR. nvm, i gave up asking alr.

i feel like crawling under my table again.

2005-06-30T22:20:00.000+08:00

YAY!!! it's over!!!

for now, at least.

"he puts on a halo and starts to fly.." iloveitiloveit!!

moo, you have no excuse to not blog SOMETHING. and schmer too. rawwrrr. schmer, if u blog, i'll learn ff.. erm. if u teach me. slowly. HAHA.

yay. free pool. and better be careful schmer.. wonus may be hiding in the bushes to pounce on you. please get her to stop pestering you or your mom or moo please.. i fear for you pple. and dianna.

i can tie plaits in schmer's hair.

omg. sushi tei is such a sin. i've soooo sinned. $149 for 4 of us la.. rawwrr.

happy ff-ing you funny people. :]

2005-06-23T08:20:00.000+08:00

i take credit for the pwn song that sam sang.

gahahahahhahaa.

i have blisters on my hands.

i can play the hotel california guitar solo on my bass.

i have a girlfriend who takes care and pampers me.

i have 2 more papers till i finish my A levels and studies for 2 years.

things can either go really well now or things can go realllly bad.

no inbetween.

2005-06-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

whoooo....

it's over. a little sad, but yeh, at least i wont be so stressed anymore.

it went quite badly. ohhh.. HORROR!!! but moo's fine with it, so that's all that matters.

damn. i could have done so much better. :/ ah wells. happy birthday babe..

2005-06-17T01:33:00.000+08:00

figured i'll type it here, instead of my own blog. its an excuse for you to reply, instead of you not responding at all. heh. ah well. you dont have to.

anyways.. sorry dearie, for the emotional outburst..

i guess deep down i already knew the answer. i was just hoping you could prove me wrong, but you proved me right.. i already know, like i said, but it just sucks hearing it out loud.

you didnt make me cry.. i guess it was mostly me, and hearing what i already know from you.. it's like you reading from my mind out loud, so its basically me making myself cry. right? bah. girls = emotional shits. but yeh, since i know it's true, i might as well say it out, accept it, and try not to let it hurt me. any more than it alr does.

yeh, maybe i do love you more than you love me. maybe more than you could EVER love me. but someone once told me that these things will never be equal, it's really up to you to judge if you wanted to. i dont want to, cos like you already know, it hurts me. but oh well. confronting it is better than hiding and hoping for a better answer to feel better.

after knowing this, even if i wanted to put in less and equalise it, i know i cant. i dont do things by commanding myself to and everything, i just do what i feel i can and i should and i must. because of everything i feel for you. im not trying to hint at you. theres nth you can do abt it when it comes to feelings.

just.. even if i admitted and you confirmed it and everything, its all in the open so i dun have to nurse a bleeding open wound in secret, just.. dont remind me and tell me to my face that simple fact okay? haha. not trying to escape, but hearing it from you will simply break my heart. as if, you know it, and you dont give a shit abt how i feel about it. heh.

goodness knows whether such things can be equalised. im determined not to try and analyze it again. too damn painful. but i guess when it gets better, it'll show, and i will have less to think abt to reach to certain conclusions. NOT gonna think too much anymore. i hope. erm. i'll try..??

just please.. don't break my heart...?? don't walk away without giving me a warning.. i've been broken before, but i know, with you, i can shatter.. at least, give me a warning so i'll crack and break gently..

i sound weird. break gently. RIIIIGGGHHHTT..

-hug- i love you.

-

2005-06-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry im not much of a blogger >.< i do check back to read though.
i just hope yr not disappointed because i dont blog much or dont blog at all here cuz it feels shitty to know that ive disappointed you again..and ive been feeling quite shitty of late already.

anyway i hope you liked monster in law..not all mothers are like jane fonda lolol
don't worry about your future mom in law so much haha.
next stop, madagascar..after that, monsieur en madamemosielle(sp?) smithy
must study more...

2005-06-14T21:24:00.000+08:00

bahh.

schmer, this blog's jsut for both of us now. at least, it looks tt way. nobody really wants this anyways. so thanks for at least the occasional post, it always makes me feel better. :] -hug-

anyway. stop making girls cry. its not v nice. I REMEMBER k..

hhahaaaa... i just find a lot of things so ironic.

i shld just vlose the blog down and leave the sheep waving. i'll draw it wings..!!!!

2005-06-14T09:13:00.000+08:00

OW
OW
OW

so painful.. grr.

2005-06-08T08:30:00.000+08:00

this song is stuck in my head.

im gonna type it out so appreciate the effort.

and i need someone to send me the mp3.

and i found out that i couldnt access webpages cause of my personal firewall.

doh

this just reminds me why i hate firewalls so much and why i need my xp cd to reformat my comp everytime i get a virus instead of running a firewall.

its honestly much less time consuming to reformat your comp rather that having to try to figure out a damn firewall.

anyway here the song goes :

the wonders - i need you

I never thought my life would end up quite this way,
sometimes it's hard to figure out what I should say,
I tried alone to mend this broken heart,
I need you, that thing you do.
I never thought I'd find it very hard to smile,
you know that other girls have never been my style,
well there's a feeling that I get when I'm with you,
I need you, that thing you do.

I could search around the world only to find,
the only thing I need is you right by my side,
there's a feeling that I get when I'm with you,
oh, that thing you do.

I could search around the world only to find,
the only thing I need is you right by my side,

I never thought my life would end up quite this way,
sometimes it's hard to figure out what I should say,
I tried alone to mend this broken heart,
I need you, that thing you do.

I need you, (bom bom) that thing you do.

i need this song's mp3. its gonna be 9am singapore time soon.

time to call melvin.

i want that mp3.

2005-06-05T00:48:00.000+08:00

hi its me again.

she's driving me nuts, having to see her everyday..!! at least im not alone on this side. geez. she'll die out in the real world.

watching syf brings back such memories. great performances, choreography.. and a bundle of LAUGHS!!!

chariots 2005. whooppeee. i need to get a copy of that dvd, someone please get me a dvd burner! heh.

anyways. im the busy girl for this time, and im blogging. sigh.

justin, why dont you just close this down..

nvm, i rant, schmer can listen. :]

schmer, hope u're not still gloating.

my study rate has decreased exponentially. if i could draw you a graph, it's look like e to the power -x graph.

im exhausted, and i need a hug.

loonneeelllyyyyyyy... i am so looneelllyyyyyyy.. i have noboddyyyyyy.. all on my ooowwwwnnnn...

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE....

2005-05-24T23:14:00.000+08:00

sigh. i never said you were a lousy boyfriend. :/ sigh. now i feel bad for telling you everything and making you feel that way. :/ you REALLY didnt have to put it that way.. :(

anyways. malaysia isnt tt bad la. it has nice food, and going there for holidays just gives u permission to buy whatever, even if they cost the same back home. tt includes food. tt i like.

and i cant believe how spoiled and pampered sa dancers are. all that complaints of dying if our dressing room has no aircon..?! wth?! i mean, sure, we'll sweat like crazy till we FEEL like dying, but why should we make requests or whatever anyways!?! we're guest performers..!! aii. dinner wasnt provided, so lucky for the organisers to allow us to the reception..!!

shagged. and feeling bad. :(

2005-05-22T14:45:00.000+08:00

justin daoed my calls. bastard.

i call you like 5 times on sunday and joo no pick up =(

you cant use the excuse that your talking to sam either.

hah.

anyways im bored and sad.

=(

i need stuff to cheer me up

untitled?

2005-05-21T16:49:00.000+08:00

surprise. im blogging here. anyway season is officially over yay. no more rugby for me lalala.
now its time for studies and sam. S²! wait S³ i forgot slacking.
anyway teh sam is in teh hoem country of sucky malaysia. it sux admit it.
so i haf teh weekend to ponder why i r not good bf and stone and study and play ff when im sian.
so now i go to do teh study.

2005-05-18T09:42:00.000+08:00

jeebus. i feel like screaming right now.

been feeling like this for the past few days.

i feel so damn frustrated i feel like just breaking down and wishing this whole thing is a dream.

im going simply insane here.

god i have this forsaken country.

i have slow as hell internet, and half the time its down,

the ports are all blocked off cause the admin is a port nazi and is afraid i'll somehow hack the system, i have NOTHING TO DO.

ABSOLUTELY NOTINHG

i cant be studying for 24 hours a day. i need to relax.

if i see this admin, god help me im gonna ....

pardon my strong language but im pissed.

im gonna rip him a new asshole and fucking tear his intestines out and feed them to his fucking mother.

i mean, HTF CAN HACKING THE FUCKING SYSTEM MAKE IT ANY SLOWER?!?!?!

you cant have NEGATIVE internet can you?!?!

i mean its down all the time anyways, whats the difference?!?!?!?! i mean fuck, cant a guy get some relaxation here?

i swear if this admin ever shows his face im gonna, i'll kill him.

and i mean it, i'll punch his lights out.

I FUCKING HATE FUCKING ENGLAND.

FUCK BROOKE HOUSE. WORSE SCHOOL IN THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD.

2005-05-16T00:18:00.001+08:00

happy smth anniversary sam sam and jarzteen.

i still dont have ff.

but i am studying alot harder now.

i'll see you guys in 44 days =)

2005-05-06T22:27:00.000+08:00

hey, dead blog!!!

anyway, schmer, i conclude u have ff withdrawal symptoms. -shakes head- sadness. no, cursing your best friend for being a bastard for playing ff cos he has a non-screwed up server will not do. aiyo.. go find new stuff to do la.. SOCIALISE!!! STUDY for a change.. bum around. and think of new ways to get rid of her.

melvin has this blog linked under "justin and sam". i suggest u change it. please la, justin doesnt even blog here! he cant be bothered to anymore.. hahaha. oh wells. just put it under baa or sth. hurhur. AND MELVIN, REMEMBER..!!! XP

yay. im happy. orientation for j1s went well. yay. dance tmr. yay.

my bloody ct told me my mom has no choice to come see her. damn. like she's demanding to see my mom. arrggghhh. irritating. i havent told my mom, and i dun intend to.. yet. sigh. sadness.

im stupidstupidstupid. how can i even apply for medical sch..!??! rawwrr. sigh.

getting fatfatfat. no ice cream today. :(

oh, and the wee kim wee person's granddaughter told a story.. about her grandfather keeping a list of his wife's all-time favourite songs. and she asked the audi of pple at the funeral, the husbands la, whether they even knew their wives' favourite things. even pple as busy as the president [ex, anyway], still bothered remembering. awwwww. sweetness. :]

and schmer, after telling us about the song u posted up, it better be a good lesson learnt.. FOR ALL MALES!!! rawwrr. otherwise u'll just lose her..

nobody truly treasures what they have until they feel the fear of really losing someone.. or until they really lost someone.

that's sadness. :(

2005-04-19T04:49:00.000+08:00

GIVE ME BACK MY FFXI!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO...........

ironically, with the massive amount i've gamed, i have never ever even SEEN gunbound. no idea absolutely how it looks like, what the game play is like.

anyways, I WANT MY FFXI BACK.

ffxi > gunbound.

im sorreh but its true.

and btw my name is TeRence.

back in england i also listen to alot more mp3's/

my current 2 fav songs are : Ash - girl from mars & The postal service - nothing better.

i think the postal service - nothing better is damn sad. as in the lyrics. and its one of the few songs with a techno soundtrack that i like.

Nothing Better

Guy :

(Will someone please call a surgeon
Who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart
That your're deserting for better company?
I can't accept that it's over...
I will block the door like a goalie tending the net
In the third quarter of a tied-game rivalry

So just say how to make it right
And i swear i'll do my best to comply

Tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together)


Girl :
(I feel must interject here you're getting carried away feeling sorry for yourself
With these revisions and gaps in history
So let me help  you remember.
I've made charts and graphs that should finally make it clear.
I've prepared a lecture on why i have to leave

So please back away and let me go)


Guy :
(I can't my darling i love you so...

Tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together)


Girl :
(Don't you feed me lines about some idealistic future
Your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures)


Guy :
(I admit that i have made mistakes and i swear
I'll never wrong you again)


Girl :
(You've got a lure i can't deny,
But you've had your chance so say goodbye
Say goodbye)




Damn sad la!!!1 even worth my fonts getting screwed up!


its about the guy not treasuring the girl until he realises its too late, but by then the girl just wants out.

bah. im gonna listen to it again and be sad that i didnt treasure my ffxi enough until i left for england.

2005-04-11T20:22:00.000+08:00

Hello y'all.
I guess its been a long time since I last contributed.
I'm so sorry, the only time I come online's when I'm chatting or playing that 1337 game called Gunbound.
Yes, GB.
And yes, I still get a kick outta trixing little noobs.
Hi Melvin, hi Terrence.
Catch up with you guys one day.

-Crystal

sevens

2005-04-09T20:33:00.000+08:00

hey babe.. good job today!!! -hug- really glad everything went pretty well. really proud of u. :] and it was my pleasure going down. thanks fer the free bananas. :]

the last match between acjc and rj was really exciting man. u can see the bad blood between both schs. scary shit. and darius's jersey sleeves got ripped. haha. those tight lycra collar-less shirts. apparently, everybody's aim was just to get the ac shirts. heh. oh wells.

good job, saints!

stuff + stuff = more stuff.

2005-04-04T22:44:00.000+08:00

ahaha. i am so tired from training. helo to teh blog!
btw my sis bought a sheepworld mug heheh.
terence i > you you owe me yr pool cue now. yr gf is worse than you. i thought you had no life..damn i was wrong.
k i hafta do bio spa now. sux.

2005-03-28T19:12:00.000+08:00

scaring myself - bowling for soup

she slams the front door
cos she knows that i cant stand it
gives me the finger
cus she knows im wrapped around it
she calls me sweetheart
cos she knows it makes me weak
she stepped in dog pooh
and im still kissing her feet
can you believe how this girl
treats me like a king?

she takes more than she gives to me
i gave my love, i got an STD
and if she came home,
i hope that she'll marry me
i want to tell her its over now
hey look im arguing with myself
i think that my girlfriend
is bad for my mental health
and now im scaring myself

the rollercoaster makes me sick and she noes it
thats why she always insists that i go on it
she told my friends that i need therapy
i need a self-help group or a lobotomy
can you believe how this girl
treats me like a king?

im waking up
im getting out.

sound familiar, schmer?

2005-03-27T23:23:00.000+08:00

i figured, let the last post sit awhile, maybe someone will respond.

guess not.

sigh. anyway. i still like the sheep. reminds me of the beanie thingy i saw at cards and such with moo ages ago. oh wells.

RAWWRRR. ck's leaving! yippee aye yayy..

schmer, spare urself, please.. its painful even to watch.

and u got ice now. haha.

i think everyone is ff-ing.

i think im gonna roll over and die now.

the blog's going to waste.. :(

mary had a little lamb, little lamb.. oh. was wondering wat was playing on my itunes..

2005-03-13T21:46:00.000+08:00

JARZTEEN PWNED MY 7TH CENTURY ANCIENT CHINESE MING TELEPHONE HOLDER TODAY!!!!!! OMFGZ Z Z Z Z Z Z Z

2005-03-12T19:43:00.000+08:00

CHOY-ge-lei-ahhh...

i feel dead now. rawwrrr.

i cant feel my feet anymore. and i cant feel my left knee anymore. im vaguely aware that my legs are still attached.

i dont ever want to move.

2005-03-12T06:48:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAH> I AM GOING HOME SOON.

YES YES YES I AM FINALLY COMING HOME.

ahhhhh. whats better than coming home? coming home to the whole house to myself.

ahhhhhhhhhh. i am so gonna enjoy this holiday.

been looking forward to this hol since.

since jan.

AH. YES YES YES HOEM HOME HOME.

only thing thats gonna stop me now is the airplane crashing.

2005-03-09T22:15:00.000+08:00

this blog is so dead.

RANTRANTRANTRANTRANT!!!

how dare sam see and roxanne come back!? what happened to their fear of being stoned by us?!

anyways. ouch. ouch ouch ouch.

i think i should just really close this down. ladidaaa.. i purposely didnt blog for so long to see if anybody would come along to put just one word up. guess not.

and schmer, whats with that ac girl who chooses what you guys play..?!?!

sheesh.

2005-02-24T19:01:00.000+08:00

oh. ok. haha. good stuff. :] scared the shit out of me, u shithead.

oh wellies. same-old, same-old.

tell me something new.

2005-02-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

hur hur hur. about paperbag.

Paperbag will no longer be holding ANY jam sessions even when i am back.

we will be launching a new side projeck called : This Way Up

this consists of Drummer(Melvin), Guitarist(Justin), Bassist(Terence), Singer(randomperson) and finally keyboardist(maybesomeguycalledglenong)

but This Way Up consists mainly of melv justin and me.

yeah.

new band name is called : This Way Up.

2005-02-23T22:19:00.000+08:00

someone please explain to me what schmer told me on my blog about paperbag. and schmer, i dun understand how u can basically jam when u're in england and everyone's back here. WHAT'S WRONG!!??!?!? SOMEBODY TELL ME PLEASE!!!

i threw the bowl into the dustbin today. i dont know why. and let the lid fo the dustbin go which knocked the bowl moo was removing, sending it to the floor. whoopdeedoo.

happy END of cny.

2005-02-21T06:35:00.000+08:00

You don't know how much I need you.
While you're around I don't feel blue.
And when we kiss I know that you need me too.
I can't believe I found a love that's so pure and true.

But it all was bullshit.
It was a goddamn joke.
And when I think of you tonight,
I hope you fucking choke.

i love that song. now all i need is someone to send it to me.

What you mena by your blogging to yourself and me only? would it make you feel better if i gave 10289379812674981264 people this blog address??? =)))

asdurf.

2005-02-20T22:46:00.000+08:00

im still alive. i just reformatted my com again yesterday night. i wanted to post here earlier but due to my @$%!ed up internet i couldnt load the page so here i ammmmm screaming my lungss out trying to bloggg smthh.

im starting maths tuition next saturday. how exciting. i hope it raises the pathetic standard of my maths though. finally bought my guitar efx after 120957127215721 years. korg ax1500g. spent yesterday going thru presets and today configging abit. did a lil bit of bio as well..now trying to do chem haha.
im making thi sblog boring.

i will blog smth when im hyper..maybe that would make a more interesting read =P

2005-02-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

the sheep is so cute.

im blogging to myself and schmer. poor sheep.

moo=4times
cow=1 time
melvin=2-3 times

im getting pms-y, and reading my old blog entries made me realise things hadnt been great the past month, but its a good thing i like the good times better.

dance scares me.

the wedding singer is an all time favourite.

".. I WANT TO DIE.... PUT A BULLET IN MY HEEEAAADDDD...." -adam sandler, the wedding singer.

sunday morning.. i tlaked to yiqing, yet to see cows. sheesh.

sunday morning. i lay awake, waiting for my phone to sound, and realised..

it wasnt raining.

2005-02-19T10:55:00.000+08:00

http://sites.gizoogle.com/?url=http://sheeponwings.blogspot.com

oh. my. god.

http://www.gizoogle.com/

best site ever.

learn how to speak black language or let it do it for you!

2005-02-17T23:12:00.000+08:00

i realised melvin says SPAM alot. have u been watching too much of 50first dates??? addicted to the spam and eggs??

[am i making sense?]

i take it as no. ladidaa. today was better. yes. and im frigging tired. from dance yesterday. grr my thighs have ballooned in size and are really hard cos of all the bulky muscles. garhh. i need to stretch!

whoohoo. i act rem how hougang is like! got moo his 2 litres of cream within abt an hr. hurhur. BEEP BEEP!! speedy gonzalez!! eh no. beep beep is road runner right? and speedy gonzalez goes.. i dunno how to type it, but i can do it well. trust me. im pro shit.

crystal, stop calling me beautiful inside out. its exaggeration. and cheer up!!! rant if u need to. :]

im stuffed. sushi tei.

i want my 7270.

2005-02-17T11:58:00.000+08:00

OOO AAAAA EHHHH YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

OVERTURE 1928 COME TO DADDAY!!!!!!

AAAAA YAAAAAAAA EHHHHHH AHHHHHHHH

its like liquid online secks isnt it.

OVERTURE 1928 I HATE JOO BUT I HAVE CONQUERED JOO

time to rest fingers before they explode.

2005-02-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

rawrr. im shagged as hell. im so drained, in almost everything. but i can still go on, keep on trying. how could i give up?

happy 4th monthsary dear.

2005-02-15T21:10:00.000+08:00

RAWRR.

SPAM SPAM/.

WHY IS NO ONE POSTING?

besides sam i mean

JARZTEEN DID YOU KNOW BLOGGING GIVES YOU FLAWLESS COMPLEXION AND WILL TURN ALL YOUR CELLULITE INTO ROLEX WATCHES?

HAPPY BELATED VALENTINE'S DAY!

YAY!

i sound like an asshat dont i?

CRYING SUCKS. CHEER UP! LOOK AT THE HAPPY SMILEY WAVING SHEEP.

YAY!

TYPE IN SHORT CAPSLOCKED PARAGRAPHS MORE. CAPS IS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD.

YAY CHOCOLATE! MORE SUGAR!!!1!@!@!!!!!

asdfa@!$sdfFD234asdf2

2005-02-14T22:03:00.000+08:00

i seem to be posting to myself eh. sigh. nvm. its rant for free anyways..

rawrr. mr leong. sigh. i noe it sounds ridiculous, but it really affected me.. on top of that, i was feeling really woozy when he talked to me. in his joking tone until its not even funny, almost sarcastic but yet not.. GARRRRHHH..

"i expected better from you."

i hate those words. i hate falling below expectations, esp from pple who i think matter. mr leong. i respect that guy la. garh. it felt like shit. i couldnt stop crying fer almost an hour. hell, he was effective. he didnt punish, he didnt scold. he just tried to make it lighthearted, but yet expressed disappointment. tts why it felt so bad..

crying in front of sheng wei was not my plan. felt so damn weak.

romita and steph were so nice. gave me tissues and sweets to cheer me up. the pple u hardly talk to.. nice pple do exist.

yay.

2005-02-10T23:42:00.000+08:00

YAY!! everything went pretty ok!!

well. everyone WAS one hour late. except greg. good greg. taught him stupid games, and we played snap. damn im rusty.

moo dropped by before. yay. missed you, somehow.. :/

food was excellent, we pretty much cleaned it out.

got screwed my dad when we finished dinner, in parents' room. was damn upset for awhile, but my mom was kinda on my side. cos we started one hour late when we said dinner was supposed to be at 7, but we started at 8, so my dad railed at me, and later quarrelled with my mom. feel bad. sigh..

guys, please be on time in future..!! sorry.. its just my chauvinistic dad who expects dinner on the table once he steps home. sigh. sorryy...

yay. i learnt abit of mahjong! won my first game, with marcus's help. yayness. :] im lucky shit.

moo called to book me for sunday night. whoohoo. i was wondering if we were going out at all, cos we all had stuff to do on teh weekend.. like orchard of hope performance, insaint's auditions, n sunday, sending of jermaine.. heh.

yay.

shaking and shuddering

2005-02-10T13:03:00.000+08:00

grr. the funny abt firefox on my com, it keeps shaking and shuddering! irritating as hell. not like i nudged it!!

im hungry. grr. stomach must have expanded the past few days from eating so much, all the time.

i fixed the html for the blog, so both IE and firefox users can see it properly now. except firefox misses out on the ff song thats there.

moo, its totally FINE that you cant make it for dins, RELAX!!!! my mom will not be pissed.

and i have a strange feeling my parents are doing the nasty upstairs. WASNT LAST NIGHT BATHING AT THE JACUZZI TUB TOGETHER ENOUGH ALREADY..!??!

-shudder-

and schmer, just rant, whatever you want, even if u need to curse or spam, go ahead. garrhh.. dont bloody think so much!!

my throat may possible just die. but i want pieapple tarts now..

iloveyou`. cheer up!

2005-02-09T11:46:00.000+08:00

lets give this name posting thing one last try. if it does not work. or actually even if it does i think i will stop posting. =))

im pretty much not really in the circle of friends who are gonna come to this board anyways =)

and besides, no one wants to see an overweight idiot spamming the blog with : OMFGQTFBBQ GLENMA GIVE ME TEH MONIES!!!! NOH!!!!

yeah.. so this is pretty much my last post =)

anyways, i though of leaving you guys with a sad song. but well, it is chinese new year.

so, since this blog is made by my best friend and his girl friend, and they are like happy, i shall not spoil things by making people think of evil stuff.

thinking is never good when your thinking of sad stuff.

so instead, heres a nice song of two people in love. im jealous of people who are happily spending time with each other now cause i am a sore, sore, miserable excuse for a human being. but i digress. anyways, heres :

Perry Como - Magic Moments

Magic moments, when two hearts are caring
Magic moments, memories we've been sharing

I'll never forget the moment we kissed the night of the hay ride
The way that we hugged to try to keep warm while takin' a sleigh ride

Magic moments, memories we've been sharing
Magic moments, when two hearts are caring
Time can't erase the memory of
These magic moments filled with love

The telephone call that tied up the line for hours and hours
The Saturday dance I got up the nerve to send you some flowers

Magic moments, memories we've been sharing
Magic moments, when two hearts are caring
Time can't erase the memory of
These magic moments filled with love

(The way that we cheered whenever our team was scoring a touchdown)
The time that the floor fell out of my car when I put the clutch down
(The penny arcade, the games that we played, the fun and the prizes)
The Halloween hop when everyone came in funny disguises

Magic moments filled with love.

its not the super sweet things that a person does that makes them memorable. a simple mundane act can be the most memorable in your whole lifetime as long as the moment is filled with true, genuine, pure love.

-terence chang xw-

2005-02-09T10:48:00.000+08:00

hurhur. cow, create a nick fer urself la!

and this whole bloggy thingy wasnt moo's idea. just my nosey irritating self's idea. hurhur. well, i wanted it to be a surprise fer him la.. so he only saw end product. and i couldnt do a layout on my own, so the waving sheep came in. :]

and i think its just waving like a spas. no hi bye. just like me. -waves fanatically-

AMAZING RACE!!!! finale okay.

whoohoo. monies. GONG HEE FATT CHOY!!! -->hakka. dun knock it till u tried it.

ladidaaa.. my cake could be fluffier. FLUFFY, LIKE THE SHEEP!!

i think i just named the sheep.

hurhur.

[is anyone laughing? cos i didnt mean to be funny.]

2005-02-09T09:42:00.000+08:00

laLaLalaALalaLaALa

2005-02-09T01:57:00.000+08:00

RAWR!

HAHA! NEW RANTING SPACE!

SPAM SPAM SPAM SPAM SPAM SPAM SPAM WORLD PEACE SPAM SPAM SPAM.

ABSOLUTE POWER TO KEEP RANTING AND BABBLING ABOUT EVERY SINGLE THING YAY!

this sentence is not in caps to break the monotony.

OK LET'S START POSTING:

i m tired n m going to slp zz gd night k thx bye

PS. Happy new year!

2005-02-09T01:03:00.000+08:00

CRYSTAL here.
you guys are soo cute!
i mean, that sheep was enough to give me fits.
must be justin's idea.

Anyway, i'm bored so lets have a poll.

QN: Is the sheep sayin HI or BYE?

i vote bye!
later guys =)

happy cny eve.

2005-02-08T22:41:00.000+08:00

hurhur. sorry schmer. erm. lulu is me. and the thing is i changed my settings to stinkypinky like.. twice. but u noe, blogger, bloody ass, always does stuff like changing it back, deleting ur posts, ur template..

anyways, u dun give urself a nick thru the settings link. before u click on the blog 'baa.', u edit ur profile in the main dashboard. yup. comprende?

my head still hurts. rawrr. damn bryan pressed it some more. grr.

they didnt play the chicken dance. grr.

hahahahhaha.. wei an the monkey looked like a damn bear with a tail..! chicken was.. hurhur. funyn shit. and green is so not mr lim's colour. think i've fallen out with him over the diff prog shit. garrhh. watever. no more scvs, at least.

i managed to bang my upper arm really hard into the door knob. grr.

moo, YOU KEPT ME WAITING FER ALMOST TWO HOURS!!!! WHAT do u have to say fer urself? HMMMM..?!? heh. jk. snore.

zzzaaannggg. everything was closed today. damnit. my bag was heavy. rawrr.

im stuffed from dins. STEAMBOAT!! and.. heh. ABALONE!!! im still waiting fer the whole abalone to be mine, eaten for supper, RAW, straight from the can.. ahh. freshness in a can. yummy. X]

i baked 2 pineapple upside down cakes. they look good. hurhur. we'll see tmr.

said sth real dumb to my cousins, totally fergot they cant celebrate cny again.. shittaammaaaammmmaaaa..

happy cheena new year everyone.

i feel bad i cant wish moo's mom personally. sigh. garrrhh SHE HATES ME, I KNOW IT!!!

love you`.

zz. exhausted.

happy cny

2005-02-08T22:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

my iq dropped 128463246812419 points

2005-02-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

today i woke up tired as shit.
today i ate hor fun with marcus. that poor sick shit.
today i danced too much and strained my stupid muscles again.
today i fell forward when trying to put on my shoes, and banged my head against the sharp edge of the stupid teacher's table.

i just feel super stoned.

today was a pretty good day.

cny celebrations tmr, hooray.

zzz.

2005-02-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

i think she means update yr own account info. i am tired.

2005-02-07T11:38:00.000+08:00

EH WHAT PROFILE NAME SHIT?

RAWR. I AM DAMN BORED LA

no when i say introduce yourself i mean like who the.. WHAT THE.

POSTS GOT REMOVED DIDNT THEY?!>?!

garr either tt im just seeing wrong things. i swear to god i saw this post by a person called lulu??

wtf?!?!?! THERE WAS NO SUCH POST?!?!??! HOW COME OMFG SHIT IM GOING ASIFHASIF INSANE MY HAND FEEL WIERD NOW.

i actually feel kinda abit like fainting. maybe its from not eating the whole day and going jogging. ya thats probably it. shit. i feel like im freaking dying.

shit. im about to black out any sec here.

AUGH IF YOU DONT SMTH THEN CALL AMBULANCE.

SUPERSIZE ME!

THIS IS TARANS AND I DONT HAVE ACCESS TO THE SETTINGZ!!

rar i pown yyou., i have no access to the blog settings. SO CANNOT SET

THIS IS TARANS OR TERENCE OR SCHMERENCE OR FATBOY

rawwrr again

2005-02-07T02:14:00.000+08:00

garrhh. had major probs with the entries not showing up in the text area. blogger is infuriating this way. grr. at least it works now. phew.

terence, the name of the poster shhows up.. IF U WILL JUST SET UR PROFILE NAME IN SETTINGS!!

siufbfihdc. im shitass tired and my body is aching.

zzz.

OMFGWTFBBQ?!?!

2005-02-06T23:34:00.000+08:00

omfgqtfbbq?!?!?!

whos who in the blog. plez introduce. i at least want to know whos who in the blog and whos ranting about who.

for example. I YAM TARANS. i am obviously fat and stupid, hence my name being spelt wrongly.

so anyways, yub. i have no idea what this blog is for la. maybe its for me to spam??

::naughty eyes at justin::

anyways, yub. im here to say that im here.

er. ok. as in i have like accpeted and is going to spam this blog ocassionally.

so anyways, the both of you (sam and justin) obviously have wayyy too much time on your hands. even with nice exams coming. so i would expect you to come keep me entertained when im back yes? good.

edited the spam line so that the board would be nicer to read.

-i am full of crap-

one ray of sunlight - phantom planet

2005-02-06T22:56:00.000+08:00

One Ray Of Sunlight - Phantom Planet

Goodness sometimes things get bad
But I swear
I'm doing all I can
So try all you want to
I'm gonna try too

If I get one ray of sunlight to hold in my hand
Maybe we can be happy again
I'll try for one ray of sunlight to hold in my hand
Maybe we can be happy and then...

Things don't go as I planned
But I swear I'm doing all I can
So try all you want to
I'm gonna try too

If I get one ray of sunlight to hold in my hand
Maybe we can be happy again
I'll try for one ray of sunlight to hold in my hand
And I guess if this isn't the end
Maybe we can be happy again

--

sweet shit. nice song!! -hug- love you` too. :] and ur browser sucks. melvin, yours too. CANT YOU GUYS HEAR THE STUPID IRRITATING CUTESY MUSIC!??! you guys were supposed to be freaked out la. garrhh.. sorry melvin. commonwealth essay first, tagboard later. i know u're gonna spam.

idiot.

lalala

2005-02-06T21:51:00.000+08:00

my darling girlfriend did this up. nice rite. obviously. its done by her.

i wub you sooky dear~

commonwealth essay sux

flying sheep.

2005-02-06T20:50:00.000+08:00

rawrr. just set this up. retained moo's old blog tho, just changed the url. hm. anyway. the music is there to freak pple like u guys out. bloody irritating. when trying to preview the template, it'll keep coming out. garrh.

anyway. this is rant-for-free. heh. i jsut noticed the pun. hurhur. so i'll just add whoever by members. im using justin's acct fer now.

so fer now, i'll just go..

RRAAWWRRR!!!

i need a shower.now.

-sam